I’ve had to accept a harsh reality recently: I am in the business of imaginary things.
I play pretend, create imaginary worlds and stories, and make things where there used to not be a thing.
This fits great with my personality in many ways because I have always had a mind that ran far and wide away from the present moment.
The trouble with being in the business of imaginary things, though, is that you have to adjust your understandings of what productivity looks like.
On the opposite side of having a mind that wanders, I also have hands and feet and a heart that get restless easily. I like to always be doing something, and my restlessness is appeased by seeing the fruits of how productive and busy I am able to be each day. I need physical evidence of accomplishments daily.
Here-in the problems arise.
Sometimes the business of imagining leaves you with no physical evidence, especially when it is in process. It is productive, no question, but sometimes the proof of productivity is only in your mind- in the space where you spend hours staring at a blank page with out putting any words down, but developing worlds and moments in your mind that did not exist before.
I’ve had to learn how to let go of my need for “productivity proof” in order that I can actually start producing things.
Today I sat at my computer and listened to music that inspired me and read bits and pieces of the script for the show I am working on and tossed around a koosh ball and looked at images and just THOUGHT. I just let my mind go where it needed to go.
What happens typically when I start to enter into this place is that the control freak part of me goes “You’re wasting time! What are you producing?” and so I panic and end up writing a bunch of useless emails or tinkering with spreadsheets that don’t need to be tinkered with all because that, though unnecessary, at least feels like physical proof of productivity.
Today though, I forced myself to stay in the THINKING place, though uncomfortable. I bounced on my yoga ball at my desk, and tossed around that koosh ball, and kept the music coming, and stared at the trees outside my window, and referenced text when I needed to, and I just thought.
And something amazing happened- nothing “physical” was created, but I produced more in a couple of hours than I have in days. I had an “aha” that made me realize that the time spent creating and discovering something, even if it is just in your mind, is time spent productively. I got necessary work done today.
The imagining of a thing is a part of the work. It might even be the most crucial phase. It is work. It is not time wasted. It is the business of imaginary things becoming real.
I’ve had so many discoveries lately about being a creative and a productive- the balance, the challenges, and everything in between.
Today I learned the art of letting myself think. I may never be the same!
A toast to all of your imaginary things- I hope you give them a chance!
Ps- THIS is the music that’s been rocking my world today
So to recap, you guys have not only met one, but TWO goals so far in this campaign, and you are super close to helping us meet our third and final goal!
UNREAL! We’re counting down in hours now!
So far we’ve revealed the following cast members:
Lauren Lopez, Joey Richter,…
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You already know that Joey Richter, Brian Rosenthal, and Lauren Lopez will be performing in The Last Days of Judas Iscariot. We’re thrilled to announce today three additions to our cast that will be joining them! Everyone please welcome Reed…
Hello once again Reduxers!
All of us here at Judas Redux HQ are positively giddy moving into the last five days of the campaign. We’ve met both our stretch budget and backer goals, strengthening the creative power and community behind the project. So THANK YOU once again to the 1,245 of you…
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It’s said that good directing is 80% casting the right actors. If I trust my instincts while working with actors in the audition room then I can allow and fully encourage them to trust their instincts in the rehearsal room.
Oh. Ok. So I have to do 80% of my work on this 5-month project in two weeks? Cool. No problem.
Casting. Not a job for the faint of heart.
Hello there friends!
Iiiiiiiiiit’s Joey! So here we are. Just over half-way into our Kickstarter campaign. Over 1100 (!!!!) backers ready to dive in with us. And, already, we’ve reached our goal!
Needless to say, this has been quite an exciting, emotional, cathartic and humbling couple of…
It is 11:59 pm CDT on Monday April 1st, 2013 and as of a little bit ago our Judas Redux Kickstarter hit it’s goal. At the moment, we are at 778 backers and $36,387. Suffice it to say, I’m grasping for words.
I’m completely serious when I say I was deeply worried that we might not meet our goal in planning this Kickstarter. I truly thought that the aim was just too high, there was no way we’d be able to gather that much support and financing around this little play that we’ve talked about doing forever. At times I anxiously considered pulling the project: saving it for a later time, or just scrapping it entirely. The idea of launching a Kickstarter and failing sounded like a certain level of hell and misery I wasn’t interested in visiting.
In the end, though, we did the crazy thing- we launched. We set our goal as low as we could while still being able to actually pull off the show and just said “yes” to the whole insane adventure of it. Personally, I had to decide that I wanted this show more than I was afraid of it, or afraid of failing at it.
I was fully prepared to have to HUSTLE to get even close to reaching the goal by the end of the 30 days. A miracle happened, though- you all, and countless others, swept in and said “don’t worry juls, we got this”. And within about 80 hours of launching the campaign you did. You had it. More importantly though, you had my back and the team’s back, and I can’t tell you what that felt like- to take the leap and find a community of people there ready to catch.
You want to know the single most common thing said to me over these past four days by people on Twitter and Kickstarter, etc?
I’m proud of you!
People I’ve never met telling me they are proud of me. Reaching a hand out to say “you are doing good, and I support you.”. These interactions have felt like some of the most intimate I’ve had with this fan base and audience to date. To feel that I have made countless of you proud of me is a bigger reward than most I’ve had in the past few years.
In all of this, and in the past few weeks, I’ve found a few key truths to stand the test: 1) The people around you matter 2) When you most feel like giving up, it’s time to dig in- to do the crazy thing.
I can’t tell you how many mornings I would wake up after a day and night of stresses or worries or new roadblocks only to find texts and emails from the team pumping me up, reminding me of why this matters, reassuring me that they had my back, that they were their to help. That kind of energy is not just contagious, it’s unstoppable. Surrounding yourself with people who are so ready to come to your side is vital. It makes all the difference. I owe so much already to Lauren, Corey, Joey, and Brian for just being amped- for being down. For not just saying an immediate “Yes” to this whole thing, but to constantly be there to remind me why I said “Yes.” And we’re only just beginning!
In terms of doing the crazy thing- well, it’s exactly that: crazy. But when you know it’s right, it’s right. I think at some point you just have to decide to put your blinders on, dig in deep, and GO. If you want it you have to go after it, and you have to shut out all of the negative forces around you that could possibly cause you to even momentarily hesitate in the going.
I’m rambling, but that is because you have left me with too many sentiments and not enough time to process :). These past few days and weeks have been some of the fullest, toughest, but sweetest times I’ve had in a while, and I’m so thankful to you all for being a part of them.
So the journey begins! It is happening! And you made it possible. I hope if nothing else I can offer you in return the living proof that it actually does pay to do the crazy thing you’ve always said you would do.
Be one of the crazy ones.