… woah.  Pause.  Its been a while.  For whatever reason I haven’t been in with blog life lately.

I am profoundly touched tonight by how vital beauty is.  I mean beauty on the grandest scale, in essence and spirt, beyond surface vision or appearance.

I’ll be honest, I get embarrassed sometimes by my “deep” musings.  I wish I could explain through humor how I feel.  Because that to me is such a creation of beauty.  I am so in awe of my comic friends (check out TheComedyofEras) because all they get to go is put joy and laughter on other peoples faces.  Well, damn… if that isn’t beauty if don’t know what is.

We have a nature that wants to find usefulness in everything.  But what if what we really need half the time is just to resonate with lovely things and feelings?  When did we stop thinking that joy was of use?

Make me laugh.  Make my dance.  Take me on an adventure, and make me feel VITALLY important for the journey.

For goodness sakes, Im pretty sure this life is supposed to be a gift, and I am definitely sure it is supposed to be enjoyed.

It gets me because it comes across cliche and corny… BUT ITS NOT!  Its actually the most important thing there is anymore!  We aren’t taught to set out in life with the pursuit of happiness, we are set out to pursue accomplishment.  But if I die happy, I would bet a million to one that I’ve made dozens others happy… and I’d say that is the only accomplishment that lasts beyond a life.

So take me happy or don’t bother.  Take my cliches or grow bitter without.  I decided a long time ago that there was more to be gained by life than there was to be lost.  And thankfully, that has proven true 100% of the time thus far.  My walls are just covered with snapshots of the people and places and things that have shown me the greatest beauty and joy… and that legacy seems to be more lasting than a million credits on a resume.

I wish I had the words to say how relevant it feels to pursue life… just life.  That sometimes I don’t know the things or accomplishments I want, but that I just know I want to be happy and joyful and laughing and loving.  I’ll do anything, if it means I’m apart of something beyond myself that brings joy to those around me, and fills me with a sense of the vastness that this life has to offer.

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