It is 11:59 pm CDT on Monday April 1st, 2013 and as of a little bit ago our Judas Redux Kickstarter hit it’s goal. At the moment, we are at 778 backers and $36,387. Suffice it to say, I’m grasping for words.
I’m completely serious when I say I was deeply worried that we might not meet our goal in planning this Kickstarter. I truly thought that the aim was just too high, there was no way we’d be able to gather that much support and financing around this little play that we’ve talked about doing forever. At times I anxiously considered pulling the project: saving it for a later time, or just scrapping it entirely. The idea of launching a Kickstarter and failing sounded like a certain level of hell and misery I wasn’t interested in visiting.
In the end, though, we did the crazy thing- we launched. We set our goal as low as we could while still being able to actually pull off the show and just said “yes” to the whole insane adventure of it. Personally, I had to decide that I wanted this show more than I was afraid of it, or afraid of failing at it.
I was fully prepared to have to HUSTLE to get even close to reaching the goal by the end of the 30 days. A miracle happened, though- you all, and countless others, swept in and said “don’t worry juls, we got this”. And within about 80 hours of launching the campaign you did. You had it. More importantly though, you had my back and the team’s back, and I can’t tell you what that felt like- to take the leap and find a community of people there ready to catch.
You want to know the single most common thing said to me over these past four days by people on Twitter and Kickstarter, etc?
I’m proud of you!
People I’ve never met telling me they are proud of me. Reaching a hand out to say “you are doing good, and I support you.”. These interactions have felt like some of the most intimate I’ve had with this fan base and audience to date. To feel that I have made countless of you proud of me is a bigger reward than most I’ve had in the past few years.
In all of this, and in the past few weeks, I’ve found a few key truths to stand the test: 1) The people around you matter 2) When you most feel like giving up, it’s time to dig in- to do the crazy thing.
I can’t tell you how many mornings I would wake up after a day and night of stresses or worries or new roadblocks only to find texts and emails from the team pumping me up, reminding me of why this matters, reassuring me that they had my back, that they were their to help. That kind of energy is not just contagious, it’s unstoppable. Surrounding yourself with people who are so ready to come to your side is vital. It makes all the difference. I owe so much already to Lauren, Corey, Joey, and Brian for just being amped- for being down. For not just saying an immediate “Yes” to this whole thing, but to constantly be there to remind me why I said “Yes.” And we’re only just beginning!
In terms of doing the crazy thing- well, it’s exactly that: crazy. But when you know it’s right, it’s right. I think at some point you just have to decide to put your blinders on, dig in deep, and GO. If you want it you have to go after it, and you have to shut out all of the negative forces around you that could possibly cause you to even momentarily hesitate in the going.
I’m rambling, but that is because you have left me with too many sentiments and not enough time to process :). These past few days and weeks have been some of the fullest, toughest, but sweetest times I’ve had in a while, and I’m so thankful to you all for being a part of them.
So the journey begins! It is happening! And you made it possible. I hope if nothing else I can offer you in return the living proof that it actually does pay to do the crazy thing you’ve always said you would do.
Be one of the crazy ones.